dats him..the guy whom help me with my problem since young n now my dad..

~Family
~Assignments
~VideoShoots
~Breaking
~JOBS(got 2 jobs)
~Personal matters
~Classmates
~My fitness
~Money$$$$$
~Step sister
~Studies
~My injury

this r my problem n the one im always thinking about..4 family..well..yesterday my dad was in the hospital..he got some check up on his heart..n so they have to pock a tube through his thigh n to his heart..so after the whole thing is done..he was to rest at the ward 4 6 hours..n so i thought nothing would happen..n so i decided to tag along with rsc at RP 4 break..while i was having fun there..mum was struggling at the hospital as dads blood was coming out from his thigh n mum have to press in down..mums hand was full with blood..n dad was dissapointed in me as i didnt stay there..n he said something to my mum that sets my mum to tears..some matters bout me n him..give u all a clue(his my step dad n wat will step dad feel when im not there 4 him as im the only son,although im his step son)..haiz..well reach home n everyone when to bed..mum told me everything today..n yes,it almost sets me to tears too..haiz..i guess i made the wrong choice of going break yesterday..thought he just needed to rest n nothing would happen..i just feel so bad..more stress coming in my mind..

haiz..soon..i will be working sat 11pm-7am(711) then on sunday with no sleep i just continue my next job..which is tutoring..well..4 now i need money real bad..thnx to step sis..selfish one..1st i was suppose to get a macbook as i really need it 4 school..but then since dad n mum really need money so i just get a normal windows lappy..few moths tyme..step sis came with no talking n show us n she say i need 2k 4 my entry 4 UNI(sim)..plus a total of 24k..n my dad will pay half as my step sis mum will pay another half..n wow..dad began to stress..n so dad still pay the 2k n now struggling to get 12k..wat im so pissed is..she didnt come visit us 4 long tyme n came to us n ask 4 14k without discussing with us 1st..n yes..u can always go SMU..y must she go SIM..her reason coz her friends is there plus her boyfriend..n its near..SMU far n got ERP..DAMN..i told my mum straight..if im old enough ill just talk back..now im pissed..its like,u 1 it u have to sacrifice right..ERP so wat..u 1 wat..how bout me CCK to SIMEI..no ERP but the PPL r the ERP to me as mrt always full..n we ask her to work n she can ans a simple bloody ans n dats IM BUSY..SHIT!!!!wat reason is dat..even i 1 something i work hard n get it..even im BZ..haiz..

just dont wanna talk further bout her..coz im so pissed with her..now my leg injury..doc says its been 2 years n he see no diff with my injury..still crack there..n dats y im feeling the pain always..haiz..even breaking i feel it badly..but all i can say is..this is not a reason 4 me to stop breaking or either playing soccer..2morow school n face the irritating ppl..haiz..well ppl till hear then..n DAD im really sorry..i care but i just thought it will be ok..haiz..i guess no matter wat..family comes 1st..
peace oneroc

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